I have been neglecting this space. I wasn’t even able to do my Sunday Six the last two Sundays. Under normal circumstances I would be beating myself up over it, but that’s the old Dan. Part of the reason that the last two Sunday Sixes haven’t seen the light of day is that I’m on a stretch of working three weekends in a row, and when I add work into the weekend mix, it is really hard to find time for much else. But fear not loyal reader(s), they will return sooner rather than later.
I also am hoping to write some other posts but I’m finding myself in a very vulnerable place lately for lots of reasons and it’s hard to not just want to dump my purse out in the middle of the school library a la Ally Sheedy in The Breakfast Club. And in my current mindset, I know that while that is tempting, it’s also not wise. Remember what I said about journaling and blogging? Ne’er the twain shall meet, or something like that.
Another thing that’s on my mind that is related to the previous point is how much I want to be very honest and write without any regret or abandon, but I’m just not there yet. I’m not sure I ever will be. If this were an anonymous blog with no way to identify me, I think I might feel differently. But the fact remains that I let people that know me in real life about this little corner of the internet and while I know that the people that I have let in will not judge me, I still worry about exposure. That stems primarily from my desire to completely control the flow of information which I realize intellectually I cannot, but emotionally, it’s a little bit tougher of a nut to crack.
In any event, I just wanted to let people know I’m still here, still trying to be the best version of myself. I’m listening to Dolly Parton’s Rockstar album this morning and I decided if Dolly Parton can record a rock album (cheesy as it is in so many places) in her 70s, I can certainly do new things in my 50s. It’s never too late, as a wise person once said. Kylie, I think.